I'm always open to any suggestions on what my blog readers want me to blog about so when I saw a comment from Adam about publishing an in-depth blog post about my top 4, I thought..why not? It's a brillant idea.

(They are in NO particular order!)

Joyce Rodrick Fierze

I *heart* this dp.

I've known this girl for just over a year now. She's the first person that I became close too when I first joined JPYM. The first few months of our friendship was nothing short of crazy. We would talk to each other every night on MSN, we would always spam each other's facebook pages. She would call me every few days just to catch up. Believe it or not, she is the only person in my top 4, who I didn't dislike when I met. I know, how crazy is that right?

I've given her more nicknames than I can remember. Chubaki, Chubaka, Papy, Brown M&M, Sister, Boyce and many others which I most probably have forgotten. She's the only one that spams my facebook wall anytime she feels like it and at times, she rapes my facebook notification without realising it - but I wouldn't have it any other way.

I'll tell you what I dislike about her, when she uses the word 'PAINING'. I don't know why but I can not stand that word. It's just so wrong, and I can't let her just stand there in her wrongness and be wrong. Sigh, it's just one of those words that really gets to you. LOL. Whatever it is, she's a keeper.

Tiffany Rodrick Fierze

"I've always wanted to do this before I fell in love with her"

- Oh Tiffy! I absoutely disliked this girl when I first met her. (Don't worry, she knows about this!) In fact, I might have even hated her at one point. (Okay, I might have left out this part!) I guess I just could not 'click' with her no matter how hard I tried and we seemed to always be on different wavelengths. I don't exactly remember how we became close. I guess It was just one of those unexpected things that happened that has no possible explanations for it. But then again, maybe MSN did play a big part in it.

I added her on MSN and from then on, she would always start MSN conversations with me. For a while, we use to talk.everyday and she was my late night MSN buddy. I'll tell you what I don't like about her though. At times, she rapes me pretty badly with her comebacks. And it's annoying because you can see that she doesn't even try, she just says what's on her mind without giving it a second thought and then, BURN. Oh, I have a lot to learn from her.

She's also probably the only one I would call whenever I'm thinking of her just to hear an update on her life. Whenever I'm thinking of her, I can just call her and it wouldn't be awkward because she would just tell me about her day even before I can ask her to update me on her life. A simple 'how are you' on the phone can lead to almost an hour of talking on absoutely nothing & EVERYTHING. I don't know how we do it, but we just rock in it. I've probably been at her house the MOST and she's my saviour when it comes to saving me from awkward situations. On my phone, she's called 'Code Red' but that's something between us. (Yea, it's got something to do with saving me from awkward situations!) Oh, keeper.

Joel Rodrick Fierze

Don't judge us on what we are wearing - it's called 'dress up'. LOL!!

Ah, I wrote up an entry before on my blog which you guys might have seen in my past blog post. Anyhoo, I call Joel, ninkaPOOP, poopy, poop face, ninkaPOOT, ninkaPOOP tiramisu, Bro, Diva, Noel and I've probably given him more nicknames than I can remember. Just for the record, I understand that ninkaPOOP is actually spelt as nincomPOOP but he spelled it wrongly on his phone and I reckon it's hilarious so I decided to let him stand there in his wrongness and be wrong. LOL. Everytime he calls/text me, I can't help but giggle to myself because it just reminds me of all his past silly typo's.

Anyhoo, last semester, he was my Wednesday Buddy and we would hang out with each other every wednesday. At first, it was like a coincidence that every Wednesday, I would meet up with him but oh, good times. He's also my unexpected alarm clock in the morning. At times, he has strange a habit of calling me in the morning and just assume that I'm already awake but so far, I've been asleep 95% of the time. But that doesn't change the response he gives me everytime, 'what? you're still sleeping?'

I don't exactly remember all his reasons for calling me in the morning but if he isn't asking me to meet up with him later, he would call me to talk about something, or like today, he called me to ask me to go on facebook to look at my unglam facebook photo. OR maybe, he just really likes the way my voice sounds in the morning - like a frog. Yes, that must be it. Sometimes, I just want to strangle him for waking me up like today, (and I swear the picture was seriously unglam! I would not wake up early to see it!!) but y'know something, I wouldn't have it any other way. Keeper? I reckon.

Abby James Rodrick Fierze

"Ooooh, yeahh! Diva and the Diva-in-making!"

Oh, Abby. She's my Moleh. Out of the top 4, I only got to really know her during the semester 1 exam period. It all started when we told each other what we disliked about each other and from then on, we started getting to really get to know each other and enjoy each other's company. She's my nando's buddy and we always get nando-gasm when we eat the delicious nando's wings. OH gosh. *drools*

Y'know what I love most about Abby? Here's a story. As you guys know, I'm underaged. So, when a group of my youth friends decided to go Metro, the FIRST thing that came to her mind was to call me and ask if I wanted somebody to hang out with that night. She said, "May, if you want to hang out, I WON'T go. May, your important to me. I would give up clubbing just to hang out with you." Oh, I'll always remember that phone call. She's a keeper - she's mine.

So yeah, I actually had fun writing up this blog post, and I hope you(s) have fun reading it.

A few days ago, I was talking to Andre on MSN and we came across a topic about love and trust. I told him that there are days where I feel like I'm battling everything alone and that sometimes, I can't help but feel like no one cares about me. There are days I feel so lonely like no one understands what I'm going through. He told me that at times, we just have to let go of our insecurities and just trust that people care. He continued by saying that if there's no trust - there can't be love. You know that you love someone when you find yourself being completely open with them.

I have to admit, I've never seen love in this point of view before. I guess my definition of love has always been very basic and simple. If you love that person, you would shed tears for/about them. But I came across this definition of love that really made me agree that Love isn't just about who you would shed tears for, or who you would take a bullet for. It also isn't about who you've known the longest.



Love is giving someone the power to destroy you -- but trusting them not to. Giving someone the ability to hurt you, but trusting them not to. Love is having someone who knows you inside out and still loves you whole heartedly.

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My top 4!

This past month has been nothing more than an overwhelming feeling for me. Life has been so full of ups and downs, I've come to a point where I don't feel too strongly about anything - I can't. It's like a series of highs followed by a series of lows. It's come to a point where nothing seems to be going right and everything is going wrong.

Maybe negativity has really got to me. All I see now is black & white followed by a little flicker of rainbow every now and then. Just a flicker - nothing more. Every time I think things are starting to get better, I get knocked down yet again. But, it's alright.

What doesn't kill only makes me stronger.

Sometimes, I don't think we understand the importance of having closure in our lives. At times, we need to know why some things ended the way they did. We need to know why that person stayed, while the other had to leave. We need to tie loose ends and fix unsolved problems. We need answers to unsolved questions to put our thoughts at rest. Without closure, these things lingers on in us and affects us when we least suspect it.

Closure is important to us because it lets us know the chapter has finally ended and it's now time to move on and start a brand new chapter.

I was working today and I came across this incident which I found funny enough to blog about. The place that I was working at was offering a 'buy 1 get 1 free' pretzel sale after 4p.m. There are signs about this everywhere and I guess that's the reason why it was so crowded. I assumed everyone understood what the sign meant but obviously not everyone because this was what happened...


HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!